You are never alone don’t forget that. There are resources:
The NAMI HelpLine: 800-950-6264
National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255
Crisis Text Line: can be reached by texting HOME to 741-741
SAMHSA’s National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)
For Mental Health Emergencies you can also call 211