Hi I am the girl with green glasses, well kind of…
I am a girl and I own green glasses now but, to me this concept of "the girl with green glasses" is a hopeful self-portrait. She is what I want to be, confident, caring, optimistic and unrestricted. I, in my current state, am quite the opposite of this. I live with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and its trusty sidekick depression. I let it run my life at times, it makes for great dark poetry but very poor self-esteem. The girl with green glasses isn't without OCD but understands how to manage it. She is the protagonist in her story, casting her OCD as the antagonist. But she has come to realize that the villain in her story is as much a part of her as her arms and legs. She is not afraid of her villain and knows that a story without conflict is unrealistic and quite boring so she owns her journey.
This blog will include anecdotes about my life and some poems because I’m still an angsty teen on the inside. They will most likely be coupled with a photo, maybe a basic white girl photo of my feet or maybe something else. WHO KNOWS THIS BLOG IS UNPLANNED. I honestly got the idea from my friend...we will call her Selena because she would love that shit...she started a blog for a class but, I feel like she can actually have an interesting blog. Me? I don’t know. I didn’t even tell her I was starting a blog until we were sitting here at our local Monday night coffee place and she glanced over at my screen and gave me that “you go girl” look. I’m sure I’ll be hearing about it tomorrow.
Anyway I’m surviving my 20th year of living currently, It’s great! My OCD is under decent control...except when it isn’t, I have college friends finally...except when they get wild, and school is amazing...except microbiology. SO OVERALL GREAT. But, that’s the thing this blog will hopefully see both sides the pretty green grass and the gravelly sidewalk; because that’s reality and a story not often told. This blog is a place for me to be as honest with myself as I can be while also learning to not judge my thoughts and feelings. I hope that as you read this blog you also can learn to be kinder to yourself and hopefully I can also make you laugh along the way.
Here goes nothing,
- the girl with the green glasses
