I know that not everyone is going to like me or be nice to me and that’s okay but, what I will never understand, is how you completely ignore someone you used to call a friend for absolutely no reason. I had an encounter like that today. My friend was sitting and chatting with a girl whom I haven’t seen or spoken to in months and who I don’t love but she’s a fine person and I wave to my friend and then to her and my friend gives me a nod and the other girl just looks at me in disgust before looking away. I don’t care that my friend is talking to her or if they are friends it just hurts to be treated like garbage by someone no matter who they are and it sucks even more when they are someone you thought you were at least acquaintances with. And I have no beef with this girl directly, it seems that after my friendship with two of our mutual friends faded she chose them which is no surprise but why in the world do you have to act like I don’t exist? It’s like she thinks I don’t deserve her attention or a simple “hello”? I just don’t understand treating people like shit for them doing nothing wrong.
My gut reaction is to perseverate on this. Go through every second of every interaction to figure out what I did wrong. Try to figure out who the “bad guy” is. However, what I’ve learned is that there isn’t always a bad guy and right and wrong is in the eyes of the beholder. I can’t rectify this nor should I. This petty bullshit is part of life and I choose my reaction. I choose to take the high road.
So, next time I see her I’ll probably say hi. But, next time I see her I won’t put any weight on her reaction. I’m trying to find peace among all this pettiness.
-the girl with the green glasses
